bye i forgot i claimed this url. i didnt even change the ec that rentry gave GOODBYE
not exposing myself because this is kind of embarrassing. i got no better use of this url besides talking about my biggest crash out on here sorry

me everytime i think of late 2024

crashout so big it changed my brain chemistry i think... genuinely. i feel like SOMETHING happened after that to my mind. something. actually valid crashout though oh my god i was on the verge of failing my classes, just broke up with my boyfriend (crush for genuinely like 5+ years), parents talking shit about me, lots of relatives dying???? and then boom rentry drama holy fuck god saw me and said "strike her ass down NOWWWWWWWW!!"

I cried a lot. like a lot. i've always cried a lot since i was small but this was actually an insane amount of tears. 0 friends to talk to at the moment and i was SO scared. so afraid. my close friends on discord didnt even gaf about me at the time which was like ???? awful now that i look back at it.

i compared myself a lot to kangel (can someone make that a copypasta. im joking please dont) because of that one hallucinating ending. internet overdose i think? like the one where she imagines doorbells ringing and things because THATS WHAT I DID. I STARTED HEARING DOORBELLS AND THE LANDLINE PHONE RINGING AND PEOPLE CALLING MY IRL NAME AND MORE. this shit was so serious how did i live like this

so glad i got better like. that was an actual nightmare how did i live.... im forever grateful for that 1 person on neospring who didnt interact with me a lot, yet showed their support. thank you. thats truly what i needed at that time tbh i was too afraid of talking to anyone yet desperately needed some sort of support. that sounds confusing but whatever.

my comeback was so legendary though. im literally friends with the same people that made fun of me