I'm putting this in a rentry because it feels awkward out in the open.

I think I’ve heard from everyone who’d've been here to ask questions. I put effort into this probably because it's not just goodbye to this project, but it's my goodbye to the internet, regardless of how much I despise it, I can't deny it's been a part of me for most of my waking life.

What a dumb thing this is. I don’t know why I ever felt so attached to so many random people, on 4chan nonetheless, but here I am. It’s a dumb premise we decided to flesh out but by God did we do it, we're still doing it. And it’s hard to say, but this is it for my part, it’s for the best that I put my love for languages to good use.

I guess I forgot to say that conlanging wasn't something I'd seriously considered doing until I found this place, for that I’ve found the love for teaching and for language, and have a real chance of getting a career I will actually enjoy working in, don't think this trade was one ended, I have all of you to thank for a secure future.

I love you all more than you might ever realize or even care to hear me talk about. I know we’re all dumb and autistic but just once in my life I belonged somewhere. For just a moment I could feel what it was like to be a part of something genuine, even if it wasn’t totally serious, I could feel competent in my place, and not just admitted into the group out of pity. Before, I’d had people I considered friends tell me they were nice to me because they thought I would be a school shooter, one who I’d thought the most of outright said it was embarrassing to be seen with me. I have actual friends in real life these days anyways, and from now on I’ll try to connect with them more.

There are some people I don't have the time to explain everything to, but if a certain chuuba walks past this thread again, remember to tell her I'm sorry. Those of you who've a good memory and have been around long enough know what I'm talking about.

All my anonymous life I’ve spent a ghost on the internet, just phasing in and out of existence, living in the moment, letting those moments fly by. Now I know what a real presence brings and I can't bear to lose it. Now there’s a real thing I have to live for, something I can to strive for, a degree, a certification, a language to learn. I know what I want to do, and you deserve to know, because for that all this hurts I am still happier than ever to have met you guys, and this sadness I feel is only temporary, I hope you all realize that it’s not easy for either of us. I know just last night I said I was depressed, but this decision eases most of that. I used to want to be some sort of internet legend, and I know some of you might try to say I was, but I'm sort of glad that dream's dead. I will miss this place dearly. Machines have robbed me of my childhood, I won't let them take my future. Thank you all, for everything.

oh, and if you revisit this gravesite, here are some songs i want you to think of

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tMjRtsM0oJ0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5iAViNf9Z4Y
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uDIeZXDuIcY