i aint making this cute, this shit is hatemail

this is my secret cringe corny disgusting childe lovemail and i will never openly talk about him this affectionately anywhere YOU WILL NEVER CATCH ME LOVEMAILING HIM. if you did, i was possesed okay?

dawg words of affection aint my love language id be lying if i write grand romantic poems about him. take my collection of designs focused on my favorite muse instead ♡

i notice how he's usually the one on the giving end in most ship content. at least from what i consume. i like imagining him to be the one on the receiving end of affection too. not sure if he would like that as he might prefer being the provider, as receiving might make him feel guilty? he still deserves to be spoiled back eitherway!

wish he would let me tag along and i'd go sit, watching him from the side while he goes on battles. it'd be nice to see him during his happiest (?) or euphoric yk how he is when fighting. i want to see the bloodlust in his eyes while he's immersed in that... im a weakly sickly teenager that cannot fight him personally sigh. btw i do NOT have a crush on him

i care not for whether he'd ever love me back if he was real. i care more for seeing him happy, not for how he makes me happy. to want whatever puts a smile on his face, and not for him to cater to fulfilling fantasies of my ideal significant other. anyways what? cut the corny bullshit OUT this is why im homophobic

I AM... IN MISERY. WHAT DO YOU MEAN I SOMETIMES ACTUALLY HAVE A CRUSH ON THIS GUY? WHAT THE HELL? EW??? WHY DO I HAVE TO LIKE HIM. NO, NO, NO, NOOOO MAN MAKE IT STOP. i would be giggling and covering my face like a teenager crushing badly on their senior. id be biting my arm, lips shaking as i try to stop the smile but it doesn't. 500 pictures of him saved. frozen loading head malfunctioning after i watch edits of him. FUCK MY LIFE I DONT WANT TO LIKE HIM. WHY DID THIS HAPPEN. IDC IF IVE LOVED HIM FOR 5 YEARS IM STILL HAVING A HOMOPHOBIC CRISIS... pacing back and forth in the room HOW WHY WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN ?????

btw the url childekisser in here is not me kissing him OKAY I WOULD NEVER FUCKING DO THAT because i would not dare have my filthy lips touch his beautiful face huh what i mean my metal bat is what's kissing his face okay? OKAY? OKAY. PLEASE BELIEVE ME I DO NOT LIKE HIM THAT MUCH

JULY 20, 2025

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYY AHHHHHHH KILL YOURSELF BOY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THANK YOU FOR EXISTING FOR ANOTHER YEAR

July 24, 2025

hey pretty boy can i please stab you pleaseeee

July 25, 2025

please can i have your head on a platter please please please