9/6/26
Wow im actually grieving so fucking bad holy poop . Im sure ill pourmy heart out into this thing in the future but i already have so so many times in countless messages in dms and my dumb private twitter that no im not Shit Talking her disorders and trauma on . im sure she doesnt think i am anymore she already apooogized and stuff like that but i fear that she still might have a hunch or something . Guess ill never know now .

Grief playlistS because i want music https://open.spotify.com/playlist/6lMSAf9amkDfbfzQmASzbp?si=rAcK61Y1Rfe_h-xAYqf8aw&utm_source=copy-link&pi=Y6-bt-XBQuCGP <- this one is from a day ago

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4GUYMZ3BAnvFUXFpRe48DZ?si=fmYigxi6TiGPuxtuWVHnUQ&utm_source=copy-link&pi=2fHEL74wS9eWe <- this one is from a few weeks ago

Maybe good things do only come to those who wait . i feel like we couldve worked and we wouldve stopped being miserable together and everythjng wouldve been fixed if we were all a bit more patient . No i was patient i was willing to wait any amount of time if it meant ending up together but he wasnt and now its over . He was really patient too but i didnt know that she was even waiting for anything until she brought it up direvtly snd started resentingbme Wtf . I want to give him another chance in my life but how will i know it wont all just happen over again And how will i know if he actually wants me in his ? Maybe im selfish! i told him i dont want him contacting me and im getting over him but i really do want her to contact me and im failing miseeablyat moving on . Whats going on im so much happier and productive and motivated as a person when im single but i miss him nontheless

9/7/26
Cashcash bro i miss you so mich i miss everything k miss the comfort i could always find in you even if a lot of the time you were the cause for discomfort uts hust that i knee you would be there for me Well thought hrrmrmrhmrmhm Ok But i widh i could cru into your arms and hold you and itd probably be really awkward because we arent wxactly anything snymore but i miss being vulnerable with you i midds hiu i miss hugging thjngs and finding comfort fifning it easy to sleep imagining it was you and i miss stupid sleep calls too Immersive experience baby i miss havjng someone to tell all about my day and hear all abo theirs and i miss uour cute voice and cute stupid laugh i dont know why listening ack at it makes my stomach churn now I have to avoid it actually im gonna go insane i hate looojing back at old messages and seeing how fun and loving we eeeere what happened i miss my best friend i miss hou i miss my best friend a lot i never wanted us to be an ex anything But now its ex friend AND lover FUCK MY STUPID BAKA CHUNGUS LIFE . 💔💔💔💔💔 And i hate how well we clicked immediately and i hate how when we texted on instagram for a little bit that one time post-tragedy it was like we never stopped talking . I miss my best friend . I didnt want to stop talking at that moment and jm sure it was ibvious with how apprehensive i was to block yoi or l et you block me I haaate it i hate it ALL . The dumb yellow heart reaction i remember it dude and i remember how i unintnwtionally got you into yellow hearting and yellow reacting things !!! Gulp . Holy unintelligable vent i dont care tho idgaf its my rentry i cna do what i want . the first night we met . I was so distraught for obvious reasons but being there with you in that call was like i hadbno problems and we talked we called for Hours even tho we JUST MET . JUST . MET . And played an ftalked and had fun and all taht shit AAAAGAHHHHAGHHHH Ok . ok ..... Bye anf then after that being able to look forward tot alking to you again all day and loving wvery moment we spent together Stupidbmilf manor imiss stupid lilf manor i poved watching milf manor and dumb dumb bad art history We never got to catch up on all of them . when will we catch up on all of them . Would we have ever ???? Stupid !!!!!!$ My stupid drawings of u and us i miss them i kmiss making them at school i miss showing yhem to you ageter Imiss all the Us shit characters songs concepts I still cant look at purple and yellow and think of it normally . I want it to make me happy like it always did but now its just a reminder of what we were

I dont expect you to see this at all but im sorry if you do thatd peobablyvbe horrifying

My stupid ugly bullshit drawing i know its ugly I DONT CARE ITS A VENT I DO WHAT I WANT . But its my rendition of how i think itd go if i were to call back like a desperate whorw and vemt and be bulnerable a shit ton and what ifd probably be thinking The top thought bubble is how i think it would probably go if it qas in person the bottom one is like my stupid fantasy how id want it to go I want to be held and hugged and comforted and no not even comforted i just want to be helfd by Bro . Shovers ok haha Fhats stuoid and gay . Why can i never let go of shit why can i not stop truing to cling back on its over its literally over and i hate hat it isnt my fault and i hatethat i dont have accountability to take anymore and that i can ttake action myself i hate that it isnt my responsibility andi hate that i can try to make it my responsibility any time but am too hurt to do so !!!!! I hate that change takes time and i know that whetehr or not he changed i want him back but its just a matter of if the same thjing will happen again . I would genuinely love you even if it ruined me which it did but thats besides the point . Love you again . I miss thinking of you and feeling comfort instead of grief !!!!!! And i hate resenting you for so many thingd i resent you even though youve apologized for so much shit in that stupid fucking document i can thelo but resent you and Qctually i wish that the block button killed you when i block hou actually i kind of hate how i hate everything you do now Like i really hate that i have a reason to wtf . Ok

Btw sophie is on the grief playlist cus every time i hear that song im like What if sophie was junnie . Wat . Then wqht . Fuck . Junnie is my kitty That wouldv been fucking perfect i dont care if its about me dude it only matters if you were to be the one to see me that way !!!! did tht song wver make you think of me too ? I hope it did ☹️ So selfish i know . Sorry . I miss meaning something to you in specific LOL .... Shiiiizzzz wtf ok . The art of driving reminds me of us thats why its there . it also remjnded me of noobronica our noob x beeronica sonas it remjnded me a lot of existential crisis hour . DUDE I WANT YOU BY MITSKI IS MEAN AZ FUCK I KNOW MITSKI IS SUICIDE MUSIC BUT I DONT CARE I LISTEN TO WHAT I WANT . ! BUT I WANT YOU BY MITSKI OHHHH MY GODDDD JUST LISTEN!. " I WANT YOU I HOLD ONE CARD I CANT USE BUT I WANT YOU . YOURE COMING BACK AND ITS THE END OF THE WORLD WERE STADTING OVER AND I LOVE YOU DARLING AND I AM DONE DEAR " " I UUST NEED A QUIET PLACE WHERE I CAN SCREAM HOW I LOVE YOU " Shit . |€shootme plz Shoot me SHOOT ME I NEEDA DIE KILL ME . I STILL GO ALL LIKE OH SHITTINGS AND WATCHU SAID AND STILL GET REMIDNED OF U WHEN PEOPLLE SAY CASH OR MONEY STIFF . WOW ! and the the the shit ih my god unrelated to the fuckjng playlist but " Leaving me knowing id love you forever " HOW DO YOU FEEL LEAVING ME LNOWING I WOULDVE LOVED YOU FOREVER 😭😭😭😭😭😭 WHAT DA FAAAACKKKKK !!! AND YOU WOULDVE KNOWN THIS SHOULDVE KNOWN THIS JUST BY HOW LONG I LET YOU SAY SUCH MEAN SHIT TO ME AND AAGHHHH . sorry . you apologized for a lot of this stuff but im not oher it . Its not my fault that i wont accept the apology either i know that im not obligated to its just a bit silly that i wont and i still complain complain complain WELLCIM GONNA BECAUSE I WAS AFFECTED !!!!! IDGAF Ok. shaddaaaapp juuuno ok

Btw who the fuck is even viewing this ???? ik it counts my own views but still my own views would not add up to that the fuuuuck ??? if ur viewing this send me a messag eon discord and tell me cus im actually so curious @slotmachinery

I miss my bunny. My connie my jirachi my spriut my evefying my noob my sheddy my chanc im so sorry i was always so greedy and reluctant to share chance with you you are tho . I miss jiracest wow like the rentry i still haven ydeleted that playlist or the rentry i dont think i ever will i bever did and idk if its still broken but i never dleeted the casuno or jash ones either . I miss my knight helmet and my homura and my sayaka I rememver when we were so stoked over how i liked madoka and kyoko and u likes homura and sayaka Ok . My idk if u ever watched lucky star but my kagami ☹☹☹☹ Kagami is my favorite too but we wouldve been so konakaga its insane !!!! Black pudding cookie . Baconpudding ok porksoda ok ok ok wtf wtf ok baconcheese stringsoda Eorry i ove cookie run ovensmash aghhhh .

I wonder if youve been thinking as much about me ad i have you post apology . I wonder if the apology was an attempt to make yourself feel better or to take accountability and stuff for real . Ill never know . I dont think i want to know because im scared of the truth . Why am i so scared about everything holy head triad wow i actually started reading actual fat written books about enneagram my gut might be e1 btw who wouldve known brah aubree helped me figure that out cus i wss having an so9 crisis and started talking about stuff and he was like Least obvious e1 !!!! So i guess im so1 . wtf no way I always thought it was more od a disintegration thing than a tritype thing but here we are .... im either worlds healthiest e1 or worlds least healhy e7 And i think we can guess . Gulp . sx/sp 731 im followng katherine fauvres trotype hing so it be sx7 sp3 so1 but also sx7 sx3 sx1 at the aame time which i think bamkes sense .

I dont want to keep missing ny ex but i hope she misses me back #wutdatmean

Qhole house of fisherman need to let the fishes go

Also yesterday i stopped talking to ahvree like i tld him Hey sorry we gotta stop talking im never gonna get over cash at this rate and ur mere existence is a rekinder of him

I almost feel guilty for doing a lot of shit cus i know a lot of it was that i need to stop dustracting myself and process my feelings but hlw do u even do that and also a lot of the atuff im doing isnt wvem to cope im just doing stuff to do stuff i like being productive and doing a kot of stuff Thats definitely why i was so miserable i was under the impression that i have to provess everything and not distrcat myself so i would avoid anything thag might bring me joy when i was sad even tho thats not how it works LOL DISTRACTING IS PART OF COMFORT AND COPING AND SHIT I WAS ABOUDIJG IT SO BADLY THO CUS I WAS LILE Ok so this is BAD actually and its REALLY BAD and IM BAD !!!!! Ok . Wordslop this entire rentry is so many words with little meaning . wait also loook at my new rentry https://rentry.co/merp I WORKED SO HWRD ON IT I LOVE IT IT MIGHT BE MY BEST ONE YET AND IK I HARDLY MAKE RENTRIES BUT IT WAS REALLY FUN Also pepep the url i lvoe the url merp is my favorite url now ok sorry im ramblemaster ramblesnake wait dandys world ramblesnake GIGI TOOON OF THE WEEK SOON I SWEAR IT HAS TO BE RIGHT ??!?!! Please . i dtill dont have waxwell LOL I HAVENT BEEN PLAYING ACTUAL RUNS CUS I WAS ODING OTHER STUFF LMAOOO Why am i talking like im just tleling you shit lije normal now . I actually meant i hate you and you probably hafe me too to an extent i dont actually hate hateyou i haaate you i looive you the song Kiki what do you love me no ameir how bout u Help i haaaate youuu i lobeee youuu i misss youu bish fuuuuckk youuu !!!Why am i stimming in text ? HLELP OK BUT BUTBTITBUT I HAFE YOU AND YOUVE AFFECTED ME IN UNFORGETTABLE WAYS !!!! Ok there ! Deeespite this i think in my logical mind you arent the worst person ever hmhhmhmhmmm yes yed okay Perf . Ya . I midd my sharky bunny bro the shark bangboo in zzz reminds me of you !!!! Um . Hah yeah so ...!!! hmu mamas 😝😝😝😝

Instagram is still recommending me the dumb catgirl bnuuy posts . ☹ do you get them too ☹ do they remind u of us too ☹ wtf boiiii . Wtf . Its fucked !!!!!

i hope you still think of me when u think of gigi ☹ Or see things i wouldve loved ☹ Fuck . in 5 days itll have been a month since w e broke up and im STILL nowhere near getting over you 😭😭😭😭 It took oomf 2 months to get over 2 years therefore it shouldve taken me 2 weeks to get over 6 months Trust . Hhaa jk iiiii know that different people different getting iver times but Hollllloyloylulyyuyy shiiiiyyyuteeeee !!!!!!!This is like really pathetic but Bro . Sorry yeah u probably dont anymore i think that hoping you do is some form of keeping you leashed onto me or something . aor me latching onto you . Um mmmm mm ..... Awwkkkwaaaaarrddd .

Come back to me cashcash .... plox ... i miss yoi ...... Wtf ..... What if im getting like stockholm syndrome . I dont know but Fuuuhucmnmmkkkkkk fuuuccjhucicckkkkk FACK . I MISS YOU @cash COME ABCK I STILL LOVE YOU AAAAGHHHH @cash YOU CANT HEAR ME BUT IM TELEPATHICALLY COMMUNICATING TO YOU @cash AGHHASIJSE PLZSSSS D:

im scared of what mightve happened if we continued the @cash @juno i love you goodnight thing holy shit i was playing with your balls My bad but also i was playing with my own i couldnt help it dude i didnt want you to feel unloved while i still loved you . LOL NEVER KEEP IN TOUCH WITH SOMEBODY WHO IS ROOTING FOR YOU AND OYUR EXES EX RELATIONSHIP FUUUCK . #yearn I DONT KNOW IF IM MORE SCARED OF IT POSSIBLY BEING GOOD OR OF IT BEING BAD AGAIN !!!!!

For aome reason i irrationally want something really bad to happen to me so that i could have a reason to go to you for comfort like really really really traumatizingly bad !!!!!! i was more open and vulnerable with you than anyone . More comfortably opena dn vulnerable with you than anyone . !!!!!

Im folding my laundry and started crying when i got to the panties #wutdatmean

I will kill sex and sexting and sexual everything nd all of it Hashtag

Its only sex by carseat headrest is horrible idont eeally care about csh as a whole " The other night I cried while thinking of having sex with you
Not out of desire or shame but some subconscious impulse to feel pain
I wiped my tears on my face and neck and the backs of my ears
And said, "Now it's sweat, now it's sweat, it's sweat now" " I cant tell you if i like it i like it what happens if i dont like it its only sex !!! KILL DUDE THIS SHOULD NOT BE A FOURTEEN YEAR OLD PROBLEM I SHOULD BE PLAYING ROBLOX AND HAVING ALEEPOVERS AND GOING TO THE MALL AGHHHHHHHH NOT THIS BILLSHIT AND I CAN EEALLY ONLY DO PART OF THAT OK HIP SIGH

9/9-10/26
i dont feel like anyone will ever love me as much as you did and im scared of loving someone else

also why is it bitches who are all about trust who end up giving u trust issues wtf 😭

Im also scared that ill never be able to forgive and forget and move on or heal unless i wnd up with you #what Idk ahybe its because that means my troubles will be sorted out with yoh specifically directly but i dint know !!!! Not evil future partner please help me sort iut my baggage and dispute from my former partner ☹☹☹especifically sexualy plzzz seriusly . On the part about um wanting it wiht you i think is partially becaus ei dont want all that for nothing like all that everything my vulnerability my suffering my sexuality my words Everything and i dont know if i can believe ever feeling or exchanging those things with anyone after you

Hoooooly grieving get over it juno plz get ovr it i dont know i dont know i dont know!!!

9/10/26
and while im still grieving shes in a new relationship 🙁

and has gigi themed shit everywhere Thats me back off ok sorry heheheehaaaha Ok . shut UP juo di de dide die die juno Ok

9/13/26
Do not open gfbrainrot rentry you will fucking die

Also cut contact with aubree and well glooomy is fine everyone else is fine actually and stop checking cashs shit and die die just die bro

Hooooly shidtings yo

Wow! WowW!]+ow!Wow thats awe!Some! Wow ! Wowthats Thats awesome 😊😊😊😊😊😊Thats awesome

I literally cut off aubree a couple days ago only to go back on impulse and probably undo any progress ive had to moge on

Aubree thinks that like gloomy dating thing is a fat prank i dont eeally car e anymore though because i shouldnt be caring what you do or dont do or who you do date or dont date and whether or not any kf it is real . I should stop caring

If its a prank why would you specifically send it in the gc that i was still Very Present with . Do you just wanna play with mh balls or what bro holy blud . I need to cope i saw ithat and was like wow i desperately need to cope . If its no a prank im hrieving over someone who fuxked me and my thought provess and my actions up . Why am i the one going fucking insane over this i didnt even do anything wrong . Am ivetting stockholm syndrome ?????? Lol bot really but yk . I really think i need to see a psychiatrist hoooly audhd hoooly depression hoooooly . Something else . Hoooooly poop . Haha no you wouldve haaaated me and my depression because it doesnt make me genuine anymore doesn tit 😂😂😂Haha tit . ok Anyway . Wow ! Like pon forbid i go thru a rough patch 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 Kill me dude

Theres still a rain cloud floating above my head and i cant tell if its heartbreak or just sad to be sad anymore . Its getting hard to tell ! I dont know ! Im happy ive been so happy i know im a happy person and i dont need someone else telling me im genuine or not . I feel guilty when im happy and guilty when im not happy for different reasons what is going on !!!!! Hoooly bro

How the fuck did i make you feel bad for expressing yourself . If expressing yourself is being an asshole to me of course you cant just expect me to let that slide wtf ???? Mofos when u dont lwt them be assholes to u agtee they siscourage you getting assholed at 😂😂😂😂 For expressing yourself ... Was it the dumb sx4 sp2 repost . Wow god forbid i make a negative repost about my EX As if that person didnt do that shit in our relationship . Do i make u feel bad for wxpeessing yourself when i dont want you to do it vaguely if it has to do with me directly ....?.? Qhen bro doesnt want toncommunicate 😭😭😭😭😭😭 I was gunna say im nit the besta t xommunicating and wasnt then but wh GIVES A FUCK THIS IS MY RENTRY MOFO !!!!!!

I hate thinking about how badly i treated hem because it makes me think about how badly they treated me and vice vwrsa

What we were. What we are. What we couldve been. All gone !

Motherfucker th e song is getting over you because im struggling tkget over you bro ive been in love with you for over half a yeae im not gonna move on if im still talking to you what

Aubree if you actually guess this rentry correctly ill kill you bro

By the way why did this rhings views double am i insane

I deserve better but i want you 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭i saw the notif for the friend request that yoou sent . Youre coming back and iiits the EEEENDDD OFFF THE WOOOORRRKDDD How it felt hahahwwhw Ok . I want you . I miss you . I miss my cashcash . my conje my bunny my my my piece of shit that i hateand cant stand i hate that i miss you oit of everyone i could miss i hate hat its you holy mirror i sound like ur rentry hahwhwaw itd true its true itrs true j haaaateyiu i hate uate hate yiu i hate you i hate you i hate you i wantyku i want you back i dont want to hate you i want tou back because if you come abck everything i went through we went through wouldnt have been for notihing i want you back because i miss looking down an dnot feeling disgusted in it i miss liking the thought of intimacy now it scares me what if im taken advantage of again waht uf what if what if wha if the only love i could find was the one where i was taken advantage of i know it wasnt o purpose you said it wasnt on purpose you arent that type of person but yoh still did it and the fact you didnt do iti on ourpose just gives me reason to think youll do it again i haaate hate hate yu i hate you i hate tou i want to hold you i haet ethat i want to holdyou i gafe you i hate youuuwuww UWU THE UWU THERE AHHSW Ok . I hate yu I sitll feel bad for the fucking like thi about my friends callingbyou retarded and telling you im sor ry i never meant to hurr your feelings innever showed you just to laugh at it not at all i ddidnt realize at the time that ithers opinions fazed you im sorry i only did because i knew i anted yo see everything others were sayjg ahout me and i thought you owuldnt care im sorry that makes it sound like i saw u as a robot i didnt at all i saw you as tough skinned and carefree and unfazed im sorry im sorry m sorry uunnyy im sorry hunny im sorry im sorry theres no use in using sweet names snymore im not your baby or honey or anything else no im not and you arent mine and inknow that because no one who dits that criteria would refuse to treat me that way after sexting sexting isnt that serious i dont care i dont care i dont care i feel like im being drsmatic dude its like i was actuall y fucked for fun then discarded like nothing i hope that wording doesnt turn you on the thought makes me scared imisorry inknkw thats not somethingbyoubcsnb control and i feel disgusted thst i still want tovbe seenbthat way ebcause it makes me feel like im worth something to you holy larp ive never even had sex im a virigin i hate everything i did because ifbyou i feel tainted i feel like my pseudo-first time has been ruined sorry bro sexting isnt that serious but it is to me youve seen my bakedass body dude you know about my weird ass anatomy i feel ashamed of another tuing i loved how you didnt care and were okay with it as long as it was mine but i fear if anyone else would and i hate hiw much you cared ahout the stupid fucking thing about how i saw sex as connectioj iver lust before you did the oppoosite of hat to me like Ojay guy who respects but doesnt oartake i guess guy who sees sex as more than lust but only when its cncenient okay okay whatwver in sorry inmiss when you were so caring snd you wanted me tostay away from that stuff its all my fuslt its my fault i never had ti fo back maybe we would still lke each other maybe you still wouldve loved me maybe tou wouldve loved me fir more than a fantasy maybe maybe maybe

I love you (Said with tears streaming diwb mt cheeks and tryingbtobcling onto you while you justvwantvmebtibget off you)

Haha we never wouldve lasted ibmean our provess and result typology was totally swifhed like vfel and flve dint make me LAUHHFHGG and actually i lstill dont car w ahout compatibility inbtyookigy i hate tyoology waaait i haaate typilogy maybe if we never gotbinto it we wouldntbhave seenvthebworst in wach ither and we wouldnt have hated each other and by each other i mean me because arent ibjust so insufferably positive and so insufferably chatty and iverwxplaining Guy who became cmfoetwbke talking a lot againvafter yiu told me gow rucking annoying and insufferable my personality is like okay ill shut up Then you like it when i talk a lot yayyyyayyyy inwontbshut up yayyy you like me exolaining and ramglingbonbthingbsyayyyy Tyen i ramblebandbrblebandbim fuckingbinsufferable again OICK A SIDE

When i feel gross insulting myself because it makes me think you wouldve liked it
When i feek gross liking my body becuse it makes me think yohw ouldve liked it
When i only liked mt body wheb i knew you liekkd it
Boobs
Booobs

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i qqnt a vasectomy when m lder

the only eeason i wouldnt would be if sOMEONE luked them

Cuz i dont

Nkw it doesnt matter anymoee

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Ut diesnt mattwe
it skwsnt mattwr
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i hate my fat fuking titties ivhate m bidy i hate it j hate my vagina i wish i had no gwnitals and i wish it was just smooth all around like a doll
i hate mt boobs bo boobs no boobs no no no

ibhatw thinkng od bwinfvwetvoebgetting someobevwet hats disgusting I am repulsed

Am i aceflux or what boiii😳😳

Wouukd the real shed give me a reason to cry when things are between my legs

9/13/26 part 2 cuz the ither one wws im the dead of night now its just evening

No shit gigi wouldnt make you feel like shit for expeessing your feelings but if expressing your feelings makes you a dick to others thats something to feel shitty about 😭😭😭😭😭 what 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 Hi

Hi aubree . Hi He found it Hello aubree you found it ballsack two time Wow . Like holy shit i really need o stop taling to you and cash and everyone me when jt comes to doing the things that prevent me from getting better

Wow
aum doing biology homework
holy bio !!!!!!

Wow thsts wwesome wow
Ummmmmm
Lemme see if i add more later i added stuff to this shit just cus i was hit y a fit of irritation LMAOOOO

I LOVE THE NYAN CAT UOODIE I LOVE MYYY NYAN CAT HOODIE NYAN NYAN NYAN

Wut else
.Um i have a lot of ap bio homeowrk i neeed to do idk what im doing lowkey

9/14/26
I dont knkw what im supoised to feel dude okay reading shit back makes me slund like razor blade my little pony My name is razor nblade im only 13 but j already knkw life sucks like that one Butdhde due dude i dont know how to feel i need to stop putting myself in situations that make mefeel bad for cash of course im gknna feel bad for cssh if i heae so many jorribke tings havllenjng to them and of course im gonna want to protect and cradle dude but im not supposed to since thats my ex and thats someone who hurt me so it puts me in a weird spot where i want to care for cash but even though i know that its just humanity and that they are skmeone whi was close to me who i still love im really reluctant to acknowledge that want . Plus its hard to picture myself protecting sombody when i cant be there physucally and the danger is ohysical so its like . i really feel lkke i woulf either way if i were there but im not so icant and i shouldnt daydream ahout jt !!!! And its weird when i compare it to other times i Failed to actually Protect her frim things that were in my control because its like . i couldve protected her theoretically many times but also a lot of the protection wouldvevbeen from legitemately reasonable concerne . I cant defend whats actively harmingbme bro !!!! other than the fact i was your partner and loved you i had no reason to keep defending behavior that is unexcusable when other peoplple give me aftual reasons wuy its wrong !!!! Itwas my fault dedinitely i should have never showed snything But y o dont putbwordsin my mouth or ignore words out of otherbpeoples mouths or whatever the sayingis ...! I talk to somebody about behavior that is activel affecting me then tey tell ne how that behavior isbbad whst donyoubwant me to do now take it like s bitch kill nyself kill you bwat what what what Mofo part about staying with you hooooly bro i legit fucking did and didnt have plans to stop even hwen heaaaaps of Everybody knew that you were and wluld repeat thesame patterns the same patterns that i had brought up to you already and thought youd chnaeg ☹️ And i HEAPS HEAPS HEAPS BRO HEAPS HEAPSBHEAPS AND I WOULDBALWAYS GO BACK ANYWAY LIKE S SLUT ! IS THIS SAY YESBTO THE HEALTH OR SAY YES TOTHE SLUT CUS I TULHINK ITS SAY YES TO THE SLUT ! i should have listenedto everyone saying that shit was toxic and saying it was harming me
Why des my brain feel so emoty i just want to sleep and vent but cant do eithe rproperly lhooooly wordslop i live slop meoutting anything coming to mind ok ok ok bro
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9/16/26
Why does it have so many views now hahahahah Im scared . Gulp . But anyway i hatesorta knowing that im not normal and never will be normal like literally i hate that i dont kust function like a normal person dude i legit feel less like a person there is something wrong with me multiple thingsand j dont think ill ever be enough for anyone to love unconditionally