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Mail 1

I decided to make this because I know discord would never allow me to write as much as I would like to, so here I am. You are so special to me, you have made me happier when I was my saddest without even knowing, and I am very greatful for that. I'm greatful for you. I am so beyond happy that I met you, I just wasn't ever able to share how happy I am because it'd be too long to read. I don't care anymore, you deserve to know how greatly you've changed my life. You have showed me what it's like to be seen and heard, what it's like to actually be myself without any judgement, and I'm honestly so happy you did. I remember the first time I met you, I was worried that I'd somehow mess something up and make you not want to talk to me, but I was proven wrong. You didn't judge me, you didn't seem weirded out, you genuinely seemed interested in being my friend. Thank you for giving me a chance. Thank you for just letting me be myself. I never would've believed myself if I had told myself I met someone so amazing, that someone is you. You don't know how much you mean to me, and I'm so happy that you even trust me enough to tell me things. I'm overjoyed to know that I have a friend like you, you are so caring and I love that. You have only ever been kind to me, and I always want to return the favor after that. I'm still trying to repay you for getting me those gifts when I was moving away, I still really love everything I got. I still have the poster and letter, I still have that paper ID that you made me, I have never once thought about getting rid of any of it. Everytime I remember I have those items, I immediantly pull them out and look at them. I love the memories we made while I was up there, and I love the memories we have now. I love talking to you, you bring me so much joy and I hope I do the same for you too. I don't believe I could imagine how life would've gone if I had just stopped trying to contact you, but I'm glad I continued to try. I know before we didn't really talk much, but even though we didn't I still cared. I hope you never once thought I didn't care when I didn't reach out as much. I cared then and I care now, I will always care. I will never look at our DM's and say that I don't care about you, because I do. You were I believe my first friend when I lived there, and now you're the only friend I have contact with after I moved away, I'm happy I never lost contact with you. I'm happy that we both messaged as much as possible. I'm happy that I can still talk with you, even if I don't live there anymore. I love you /p, and I will always think about you. I don't care if I don't live near you anymore, I don't care if they only way we can communicate is through calls and text, I will always think about you. I will always wonder how your day has been, what new hobbies you may have, what new fandoms you're in. I will always try my hardest to make sure you feel seen, because you did that for me. In my eyes, you are the most awesomest person I've met, and I don't think that's going to change anytime soon. I care about you so much, and if you're ever going through something we'll go through it together. I will be by your side through everything, if you want me to. I will always care about you and I will always support you, even if it's from a different state. I truely do hope you never forget this, because every word I say is true. You deserve so much, and even though I can't give you anything and everything you want, I can at least give you my all. I will give you my all, in the ways I know how to.
I will always try my hardest. I love you /p, and I always will.