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twilight : 12am to 7am
day-time : 7am to 12pm
afternoon : 12pm to 7pm
night-time : 7pm to 12am
school : 7am to 4pm, 5 periods + lunch
recollection: make-up for a day

Monday, 27 june 26 : Afternoon

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Wednesday, 27 may 26 : Afternoon

it is moggy out. i am wet from the rain. me and Grayson are at the library. damp damp damp

Tuesday, 26 may 26 : Afternoon 🏖️

I Beach. (Barbie 2023 & Drive 2011 Reference)

driving, ft. earth/tau ceti/erid

Van

Maggie & Lainey & Van also sort of

the three of them

what are they UP to!

Friday, 22 may 26 : School

period four
Right now, Van and Maggie are sitting in. We're sitting at the large circle table. There are Nine of us.
Starting on my left: (Me), Lainey, Julia, Chaya, Logan, Maggie, Albert, Van, (Me).
Lainey is trying to work. At lunch we were throwing around a ... 7 up ... can, so, she couldn't then. Julia is working too, per usual...Logan and Chaya are...chit-chatting and drawing. Maggie is chatting up Mr. Buckingham. Van is looking at stuff on Albert's laptop. I'm writing This.

There's the perfect amount of noise right now. Three conversations going on. Fifth will be nothing. Today we (me, Mags, Grayson)
PAUSE.
Mr. Buckingham is implying there are Alien bases on the bottom of the ocean. Oh wow. This is awesome.

Today we got the fabric for the rocky plush! During HR. Oh Felix and Lynn just got here. Big crowd. Biggg crowd. Hm. School is almost over.

I haven't changed very much. Right now I'm listening to a random playlist for Drive 2011. When was the last time I really cared about an actor, Hudson Williams aside? I'm...not sure I ever have. Hm. Things are pretty good right now. Pretty good. Pretty good.
Everyone is just enjoying themselves. That's really nice. I guess I've missed summer.

This is just when things change! And things are changing.

I think, sometimes, that this is my favourite time to be around people, because everyone is seemingly on the same page as me. Everyone, at the end of the year, realizes that it'll all be over soon. I'm just stuck thinking about that! Every hang out, nearly the entire time, I gotta avoid sitting and thinking: This is—what, 1 of...6 times? 6 more chances? Before I never see these people at this time again?—and um. Well it's annoying. But now that everyone is thinking it, well I can just talk! Great :) It's just Great.

Tuesday, 5 may 26 : School

morning
It's been a year since I started this blog! Not on this page, but if you check the pre-2026 page.

It's summer again. Well, spring...it's warm again. I'm so glad. I've missed it.

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Sunday, 15 mar 26 : Twilight

I'm at Maggie's 18th birthday party right now! I'm in the corner of the couch. Maggie is to my left, chatting with Grayson about Trauma (to initiate him into the cult). Behind them are Chaya and Logan. To my right, behind the couch, are Erica and Cooper. Across the room are Callah and Van, and then Macey and Gabby. Sammy, Ruby, and Lainey left earlier. What a full house!!! I think it's been pretty great so far. But I suppose Maggie is the one that decides that! I'm pretty thankful though. I can't think of many more birthdays that everyone will be at like this. And we're already in our second semester of senior year. Well, most of us LOL.

18! Goodness. Goodness. Old. How did we get here!

Thursday, 12 mar 26 : Afternoon

Are DNI lists "useless"? I'm not so sure. I think people often say they are, use that phrasing, but what they mean is that DNI lists will not actually keep people from interacting. But that doesn't make them Particularly useless, I don't think. A DNI list is just as commonly used as a way to share your stances. When you put "pedophiles" on your DNI list, I assume you know that no Pedophile would Not Interact thanks to it, rather, you're making clear that you aren't fond of pedophiles. Which, um. Yeah! Yeah that makes sense.

Though there can be a downside to looking at DNI lists this way. You see this downside in action on twitter a lot. People screenshot someone's DNI, and it says something like: "Fan of Series DNI", but then the person themselves is a fan of something "worse" or similar. Well, in that case, the person probably just doesn't like the FANS of one specific series, and it ISN'T them dogging on the series itself. Oftentimes, I think these coincide, but when they don't, it's pointed out a lot.

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Thursday, 26 feb 26 : Afternoon

5:39 PM
hi, i'm at the library right now, with Van.

Saturday, 21 feb 26 : Afternoon

at the library with Grayson. Ohhh yeah. Fancy Shit.

Monday, 9 feb 26 : Photos

Wednesday, 4 feb 26 : Photos

Monday, 2 feb 26 : Photos

tims and tma :)

Monday, 2 feb 26 : School

period three
hii. i am excited to go home and listen to tma with innon. and also to hand in my phys work. mm i have basically no homework which is just so fantastic. life is so beautiful when you have no homework.

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Wednesday, 28 jan 26 : Photos

gang

Friday, 9 jan 26 : School

period two
BLEHHGGHSHH!!!!

Friday, 9 jan 26 : Twilight

i wonder what it was this time. like, that got me here. um...i have an inkling it is at least in part due to—(i almost said "somehwat in part due to", but that one fucking roxyjane conversation radicalized me on this sort of error)—all of the money i have (had...) at the moment!

it just umm. it really does buy happiness. looking at all the homestuck shit i have is genuinely so unthinkable. i think a big factor of why merch and homestuck means something to me in Particular, is because of the nature of the fandom. i used to have this whole thing with art and things being done the right way. i still do, in other, non fandom aspects of my life. if i don't think i am going to do a good job, i don't do anything. this feels much better than doing a bad job.

but i went into the homestuck fandom with the idea that all of the cosplays are the shittiest things ever. i knew this because, i had googled karkat vantas cosplay (shortly after i met karkat), and realized that they were...just awesome because of the effort and love put into them, rather than how it really looks. so it's been different. i've been perfectly fine printing out pictures to put everywhere and making my own shitty horns with friends. buying printable vinyl for sweaters, even. it's just so embarrassing as an outsider, that it doesnt need to be ironic. i do not mind telling people i loevee homestuck because, well, typically, they Like me a bit before that, and i lure them in with hilarious bits and whatnot bfeore revealing it is alllll homestuck. and they give ti a chance! and thats the way it was meant to be. it is just pretty freeing. it is such a personal thing for me and sooo many others. how beautiful is that?

very! very beautiful. so, in spite of all of that, having my official merch is even cooler. it means...no more to me than the shit i made, honestly. right now, to my lfet, is an official crocodile consort plush that cost far too much. and to my right is a jakedirk mug i made for 20 dollars, as a gift from a friend of mine. and both are just so awesome. and acfoss my room my jake comm and print out of eridan are staring at me. lik ewhat a fucking life man. and of course the mini dirk Mags made me is on my bedside with RD & AJ (& FS). all so so so beautiful! but i'd be just fine without all of it, i think. it just really changed me and is changign me. normally..changing doesnt ttake this long. and yet it feels like there's so much to do. i haven't even reread the entire thing yet. i havent even played hiveswap. i havent even considered the logistics of johnrezi. i havent even read. vast. error. like BRAH! there is so much. and at the same time i am Having Not done any of this, the community is so active! what a beautiful!!! fucking way to be!!!!

well anyways. my point was just sort of... oh wait i wasn't even talking about homestuck. ok fuck my life hang on

well Anyways. i feel pretty great right now. that's odd. its 3:45 AM and i am starting and finishing a seminar i am to present tomorrow. i've been losing it over this and various other assignments for the past month (as in, two thirds of dec and one third of jan). and yet. bird noises...listening to the same 10 songs consisting of various bird noises is sort of! saving me. they are so pleasant. i forget they aren't..like..real very easily. which is awesome, because there was a time that i couldn't really fathom that bird noises WERE real. hearing them outside of my window was very um...unreal.

so maybe the birds cured me? i didn't know they could do that!

[Pre-2026]

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