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" Wont you die tonight for love ? "
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12/31/2025⠀HAPPY NEW YEARS (or at least close to the date) we officially met 2/5/23, nearing three years!!! can you believe it?? you've seen me through all these cringey eras, constant ups and downs and you've been there for my worst. you understood. you welcomed me back each time. i don't know what you see in me or why you've always been so loving. either way, our dynamic means more to me than you will ever know. i got so used to keeping to myself that i never really noticed how i prefered your company over being alone. you’ve changed the wiring in my brain, everything reminds me of you!!! your stupid moments replay in my head when im without you, every stupid little thing we've ever done, might it be games, conversations, bits, collaboration efforts, or just simply existing together lives in the back of my mind. i'm so so glad you're here. I hate how cruel the world is to you, and your struggles are valid despite how dismissive you are of them. i'll always be here for you. though we only technically started dating a few months ago, i count this as our upcoming third anniversary! its so surreal how fast its gone by. You're my bestfriend, my star, my boyfriend and you will always be my first priority. there aren’t enough words to express how thankful i am for you. I feel so alive next to you, you’re my love, my soul, my other half. You make me feel genuinely invincible. aslong as i’m here, you’ll always have someone in your corner. I love you so much blondie ♡
being with you has been the most euphoric experience ever, im so blessed to have met you. i feel like a stupid little schoolgirl fawning over her crush it is CRAZY how absolutely infatuated i am with you!!!!! there’s something so intimate about understanding each other, even just existing together. i get so giddy when you remember the little things i’ve mentioned once. our dynamic is so so special to me, i love the playful banter love language we have.
my mom still says we’re so alike that it’s almost scary! i remember our first talks, that night playing evade on drab being so excited we both loved msi and all the same music, staying up all night playing evade. i loved it. i felt so alive with you, i still do. you make everything enjoyable, i've never enjoyed life like i do now. all of our evade and tsb moments mean so much to me, every stupid inside joke, i catch myself referencing them around family without even noticing
it seemed like we were both struggling, neither of us said it but we both knew, and being able to have those deep talks with you those late nights is something i'll never forget. even during the the lowest point in my life, you showed me kindness. you never judged me, and i don’t think you’ll ever understand how much that meant. you’re the first person to see me as a person rather than an issue to fix, the first to consider my feelings. you indirectly helped me leave my abuser and i will never be able to fully express how extremely grateful i am for that. though i'm not perfect, i'm much better now. a lot of it is thanks to you, i've leaned towards healthier coping habits and i really do want to get better for you.
I love you. I love you so much. I don't say it enough. You're so effortlessly beautiful, the way you light up at the tiniest mention of your interests, the way you look back at me with those sparkling eyes. spending this time with you has made me understand why people crave love so bad. i can't wait for when we get to actually do everything we talk about, move across the state, go to all these fun events. it's so dumb how i'm so beyond excited to see you adopt a bunch of animals like you joke about. i can't wait for the day i'm able to wake up next to you and kiss your stupid face. you're such an integral part of me, i'll never be able to fully encapture how grateful i am that i get to call you mine.
these past few have definetely not been my best years, but at least i met you. i love you.
There's so much i subcontiously associate with you, and things i can't look at without immediately going "ohhh party would love this...." — So of course; this whole site is rainbow, it focuses on your favorite shade of pink, 'Join me in death' is plastered along the headers, theres stars, gifs and neon-eyebleeding colors basically everywhere! i hope you find at least a little bit of solitude in the visuals here.
there's a lot of characters and duos we tie ourselves too, huh? there are some obvious ones, but heres the most notable !! these are the epitomy of us theyre us 