Alright, so , where do I even fucking begin
I'll guess I'll start of with a disclaimer that everything below is an emotionally charged rant, basically just me rambling out things as they enter my head without much thought so please don't see it as me making any statements or anything. If anything, don't even mention anything below in the thread. Please.
It kinda hurts. I know I haven't done much, or been as interactive as others in the thread, but seeing the out pour of support and love shown for the new guy on the block where people have been either completely quiet or only shitposted with you Cunt... I guess it makes me feel unwanted. Really fucking silly I know, and honestly pathetic to get worked up over yet here I am, feeling like people have found their excuse to push me (or us) aside. It's got me honestly got me having thought about going full schizo menhera last night, telling both the thread and you to go fuck yourselves and start writing about /MANS/ in what used to be /nasa/ as some sort of borderline schizo tribes migrating in from the north. Or just saying fuck it and toss the role of a rep back to you. I've (largely) abandoned the ideas after sleeping on them.
I don't want to go into the /soc/ shit aspect of this, but I guess I just get that intrusive thought of people around me just wanting me gone but not stating it outright pretty often. Been to therapy but it did jack shit.
Honestly it even almost felt like a backstab reading that you would support this guy over us, even when I myself don't know if I could really accept the place in good conscience knowing that it'd fuck over a writer who genuinely hasn't done anything wrong other than have an unfortunate timing. Hell, under literally any other circumstance I'd be super happy about the new blood, but here I am almost starting to sound like the fucking schizo shitposters.
TL:DR I guess I need meds.
I feared you were going to write something a lot worse and more personal, like something had come up for you irl. Talk about a sigh of relief. don't worry, never gonna bring personal shit in the thread.
On the one hand, I can see where you're coming from regarding feeling that just liking how it looks feels like a flimsy reason. On the other, part of me wants to cut him some slack because I don't know about you but I certainly didn't have that much planned out within the first week of us taking on being writers for /MANS/. And I on the other hand had plenty of stuff planned, but didn't want to talk about it before the placement got finalized. I had plans to flesh out the settlements, unique rituals and "magic" each faction had and most importantly, a story of an adventuring band hunting monsters in /vnug/. In the end, I fear I would just get burned out if a timeloop was reignited. I also generally just don't like going back on my word. I'm glad you'd have my back though.
If anything I want to know if that reignited interest is just spite that's going to leave if we were to get the original island. Part of it is spite, yes. Blame the slav in me. But the larger part of it is just that I didn't realise how invested I really was in the island until you two finalized the deal yesterday. It's fucking tragic I only realize shit like that when it's almost too late. And with this new info I can't in good faith leave it as is. It would leave a bad taste in my mouth if I didn't even at least try to fight for it, now that I know what I want. More so than anything else, I kinda just want to write and would love to have you back to bounce ideas with. It was really fun and I was looking forward to kicking it into overdrive so I was kinda bummed to learn you weren't feeling it anymore. Like, one of the things I was waiting on telling you was that I was going to relent and go with the more fantastical design for the peoples of the island like huge 2m still happening btw tall axelotles as sort of a quality to compensate for the loss of quantity. And since no one objected to it, I was going to still make the amount of land we had in total under the surface available to us be even larger than what I had planned for the first island. Think of it like the surface being the relative low-leveled area in an rpg, with each successive level being home to greater dangers. This could still be interesting, but I personally would feel really limited if all I had to spec bio were species developed for underground life. Unless, of course we went balls to the walls with biomes like in Made in Abyss. And it's not like we can't do that with The Hole™ anyway, since it wouldn't be under our control for a long time yet. No reason not to make the underground caverns span half the island.