I love my boyfriend Gaku(chi) Oppa Kun whatever THE HELL! I only use he/shy so if you wanna shit talk me use that Lol. Yes I AM PARASOCIAL kill me for it. Burn me at the stake. Enough about me, this url is dedicated to the LOML and I'll be incredibly corny over him. There will be some entries that weren't ever documented on my old lovemail rentry. I love him so much and I've loved him since his debut in the sakadays manga 2021年 12月 06日 and I forever will. Sorry this yume riako shit gets serious for me. I will never shut up about him and I'm glad to have spent 4 years of my 18 loving him so much. My love is yours to keep for an eternity!! It's the cold season again, so let's cuddle together while I suffocate you with my billion of blankets! Thank you for taking care of me for so long. I'll write more public love letters to you!
01月 11日
i couldn't update on my bday (9th) because i had a 102 fever. uhm. anways! thank you to my friends for their gifts and blessings to me i love them all. and of course, thank you to my boyfriend that took care of me and haven't catch any illness of mine! i'm so happy to be able to be taken care of by you, and helping me recover as quickly as possible so i can be myself again. i'm still blurry from my fever so i want to keep this short. let's have a proper birthday celebration soon, okay? i love you boyfriend, so much. okay i'm done for the day thank you for spending so many years with me and keeping me happy and taken care of. shove more meds down my throat i love you!
01月 05日
i've been getting back into games i used to play, like hsr and pjsk. though, most of the time i make gaku farm for me and i just do whatever else lol! i really wanted the new toya card, but i'm happy with emu and minori! they're both sooo cute hehe! i quit hsr after losing my 50/50 to clara when i was pulling for cyrene... sigh. i don't think i'll play genshin ever again though. i've lost the joy in it a whileeeee ago. gaku has been helping me farm jades though! i wanna save up for cyrene's rerun, which might take a while, but we'll get there! or hyacine since she'll be good for my blade team as well, but i think luocha is fine with him. gaku also made a hsr account! he got dahlia in a one pull so. whatever. i didn't wanna pull for her despite loving her design so much.. i just don't play superbreak enough. and i don't have enough to pull for firefly too, unless i get extremely lucky. i've saved like 30+ pulls, almost 40! i'm also saving pjsk crystals, i currently have 6k which isn't a lot, but i get so lazy in that game. i wanna pull for another ena card/niigo in general. another colourfest is gonna happen soon, so hopefully she's on there! or i can just get her previous ones. thank you to my boyfriend for helping me. i love you gaku.
01月 01日
Happy New Years! Another year that we will get over together. I've always said this, but as the years past, I realize that you're truly the only thing I need for as long as I am alive. It's here... though we must pay our respects and hope for a prosperous life and relationship! Thank you for indulging in my whims, I know you couldn't careless about this gimmick. 2026 will be our one of many perfect years! You've kept me happy ever since 2021, I'm sure you can keep making me ugly laugh until the day we pass. You should've worn something warmer + maybe a yukata, though my kimono wasn't keeping me warm either. Your arms enough to suffice though, hehe. Even if you're annoying on some days, making me ignore you for hours on end, I'm more than grateful to be able to spend the rest of my years with you. I wanna keep this short since we have this whole day ahead of us. Cheers to another year of GakuMoka ♡ Together forever!
12月 31日
It's passed Christmas by now so what this entry is about is a little late. My life was swarmed so too many issues that being in your arms for the cold season is the remedy I needed. I was quite clumsy decorating the tree, wasn't I? To be honest, I would've spent this Christmas more family orientated, but I feel happier when I'm with you—it's filled with more love in a way. Oh well! Be up early tomorrow, we have to pay respects at the shrine! Happy New Years Eve, my love!
12月 30日
Ehehe I was right! I don't have much to write except that my Boyfriend won't have a banner until Jan 5th (JST), it's okay! More than enough time to farm my crystals back to 90k! I'm already at 80k, so it shouldn't be too hard.
Edit: I'm down to 50k trying to get 2 other cards of gaku. Uhm Bro. Pmo.
12月 29日
New event with my boyfriend? (potentially at least) I must get his card tahaha. I'm not even sure, but I kept seeing everyone be so sure so. I'm gonna trust. I see his spiky hair, so I'm holding onto that hope a lot. Unless I'm schizo and I just want my boyfriend there, but whateva. I spent 30k for new Natsuki, Sakamoto and Uzuki card + multiple copies of them and their signature. So it's a win for me! I also farmed 10k more soo I'm now at 70k!! I miss Gaku so much he will be here guys. Trust me.
12月 27日
Currently listening to playlist of our songs while playing the sims! Did you know I made you get pregnate instead of me? #GakuMpreg REAL! In my personal opinion, "Like The Movies" by Laufey + "Hopelessly Devoted To You" is OUR song. I'm sooo sick of you, all I think about it you. All I want is YOU! Pay attention to me boyfriend... hold me in your arms while Japan is getting colder by the days. I'm excited for the snowfall, the same snow that I'll throw in your face ^_^ I missed you soo much I'm glad I can finally be in your arms no! Nothing could compare to the real-life boyfriend. The more I stare at your face the more stupidly cute you get... Did I make it? #NOTacornball. I am fortunately the most sane person ever, and never schizophrenic! Anyone who thinks I need ton "wake up" is just a big HATER! You're the most lovable guy ever, and I will have to spend the rest of loving only you... Who else could be my other piece so perfectly? I could never be miserable, especially since I am your girlfriend after all! I like to think that we fit, she fell first and he fell harder kinda trope, but to be perfectly honest, I think I just love you more and more everyday. You're so dumb looking... Never change! Your bluntness is what drew me in the most, especially when you confessed in quite literally the silliest way ever! If it was any other guy, I would've obviously said no and maybe even slap them for the sloppiness. But, since it was you, it seemed more endearing than annoying to me. I can't wrap my head around the fact that it has been FOUR years. I've of course change in so many ways since that, but not my love for you of course. I'm more than happy of how much we've changed with each other! Thank you for putting up with my avoidance and petulance on a daily basis. I know there will never be any other girl for you, other than me of course! My heart is yours to keep you greedy bastard! I never thought that I'd say that, but I guess love makes you stupid! We got married in the sims BTW. So... #GakuRoha marriage is 12.27 technically? Perchance? I've dedicated a stupid amount of time teaching you Korean.. You've made some improvements, but you CANNOT be saying 씨발 at everything. I've grown sick of it! I don't know why I called you greedy, when I'm even more greedy... I will NEVER EVER share you with anyone. I mean, why would I? You're MY boyfriend after all... ♡ I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND SO MUCH I WILL NEVER BE SILENCED!
12月 26日
I forgot update on Christmas day, but here I am now! Thank you, my love, for the best years of my life! You were the best gift I could ever received, and I'm more than happy that God has blessed me with you!!! You're such a cutie, and my light and saviour. I couldn't ever ask for anything more! I see you in everything! There hasn't been a day where I haven't thought about you at least 5 times. Our limited time hurts, I think college has been creeping up on me. But, I'm thankful for this winter break so I can bask in your arms once more. My safe space, someone whom I can find solace and tranquility in. I'm the luckiest girl ever to be yours! I love youuu I love you so much. I will never shut up about you ever, I'm sure my friends are sick and tired of your name being in my mouth by now, but can you really judge a girl in love? You make me giddy and kick my feet, like a middle school girl passing by her hallway crush! These small little paragraphs I put on display for the rentry world to see, truly pales in comparison of my handwritten love letters—you know this better than anyone. Writing to you feels so easy. If my wrist never cramp up, I would forever write to you if I could. Maybe some of it would get redundant, but I can't help it! I adore you in ways that I thought I had the in ability to. My love for you in ending, and sometimes even overwhelms! I haven't ever found a thing about you that I don't love. Being with you is my best decision ever—thank you for helping me be capable of feeling loved. I've dedicated an entire shelf and some other parts of my room to you. This love for you will truly last into my next lives! Enough rambling though, I'd rather spend time with you than show off our undying love! I don't know if anyone would ever truly read this... Either way, my boyfriend only loves me! I think everyone else is schizophrenic.
12月 24日
Happy Christmas Eve! I'm very thankful for the holidays since I can spend hours upon hours with him! I've been feeling quite feverish, and I'm getting paranoid.. I'd rather not be a victim of something right before the holidays! Who's ready for 2026? It's getting closer to 2030, and I think that'll be the year of when I regain my own conscience. I've always found it so far away, but now it's closer than 2020... Feels pretty weird! I have nothing to ramble about today except that Gaku and I watch Zootopia 2. Not today, but a week ago, and I don't know. It was okay, not my favorite. Though, happy holidays to the rentry world!
12月 18日
300 pulls who up. I will be getting my gaku everytime I pull for him guys watch out. Anwyays My screen time on this is an average of 5 hours, I need to sleep and Lock in. Not geeked out.
12月 06日
I hope you realize I love you so much. Cheers to our four years together on this wretched earth! I have found immense happiness in your presence, and couldn’t ask God for a better boyfriend than you! No matter how much I’ve asked of you, you end up doing them either way. Thank you for your patience with me even though that sometimes contributes to your stoicism. Being in your arms had always been the most tranquil and vulnerable I could be. You’ve always brought me peace, and I’ll always be appreciative of your actions. With you, I will always feel safe and taken cared of, so thank you for indulging in my spoiled and petulant behavior! I know this is short, but it’s because I wanted to spend my time with a handwritten letter instead, just because it seems more sentimental! You’ll always be my other part whom I cannot live without. Please continue to pester me with your nonsense so the day we have abandon all of this and die in each other‘s presence — much love, your girlfriend, Roha.
11月 27日
happy birthday my love! i planned this entry, i know i've been lacking on my pda, but i was set on writing another entry for you for your birthday! i'd like to think there's another lifetime out there where i can gift you all sorts of things, and spend your birthday with you next to me. though, this is more than enough for me! i wish i could see your face shoved into a cake i baked for you—i think it would be my new wallpaper. it only took me 30 pulls for you and your signature! i'm glad that my boyfriend came home to his one true girlfriend after all... i know you're not fond of dressing up and eating out, but i want you to live on your birthday at least! i'd like to keep this entry short, since we have all the time in the world for your special day! i hope to grow old with you, and live the next lifetime with you by my side. i love you, forever. and i hope to make this day the most memorable!
11月 26日
Happy Gaku day! I got him in 9k gems, which I'm super glad about. I can save for his next banner now! He looks so cute and he's manspreading Oh I'm talming about innit.
11月 25日
A CLUCTCH FOR HIS BDAY CARD!!! 1 more day for JP time... I'm ready take me. Wish me luck and happiness guys.
11月 13日
maybe i jinxed it, but i did forget! to be honest, i only remembered this because gaku mentioned it! life has been hectic and i started another diary to dump my schizoslop, but i will need to dump my undying love here! his birthday is soon, and i can't wait to celebrate it! believe it or not, his birthday is on thanksgiving. how sweet! i'm always thankful for him being in my life. to add on to special dates, our anniversary! iroha gaku 12.06 is going to creep up on you... oh! i forgot to mentioned we played cineris somnia on it's 7 years to celebrate, i miss it so much. can it get popular so i can finally dump my autism on it without sounding weird?! i can hardly wrap my head around the fact that it's been almost 4 years since i met this stupid looking guy. though i hold no regrets about our time together! i love you. i'm glad i have you now, and you'll never leave my greedy graps. cheers to another year of us spreading propaganda about us! you're the only man who could ever match my freak! ( ˶ˆᗜˆ˵ )
11月 12日
New Gaku card obtained! Yoohoo!!!! He's cute in this knight 2.0 and way better than the OG. He had weakass drip in that one, but he still looked handsome. He just looks more handsome here! I spent 21k of my birthday savings for him... Uhm Yeah. This is bad. So I didn't go for the signature card.... I'll get it another time.
11月 05日
LOOK AT MY HANDSOME BOY. I finally picked up this game a few days ago. I'm so glad I got him yay!!!! Why am I lowkey enamoured by a puzzle game. I have reached the final layer of gacha game hell. Good lord help me. anyways Bai.
10月 04日
i've been feeling very gakupilled. he's been plaguing me a lot more than usual... i wonder why. new official art released like 2 days ago, he looked so darn cute!! my boyfriend... anyways. his tongue was out too so cutesy. i always do that in my photos i dunno why. enough about me, we've been playing some more resident evil! (peep the 09.30 quote) since it's getting a new a game! resident evil requiem here we come. also new fatal frame + silent hill content, life is great! though none will ever top my love for cineris somnia. it's never gonna be revived so i'm sad about that. but it's been almost 7 years since it's release and i'm so happy! i hope one day, people will adore this game as much as i do. enough about that, gaku and i are going to play some roblox. life is always better with him, i will write a full lovemail entry soon. it will be disgusting and corny, and you will have to witness on how much i need to gush about him. for now, i will try to be a bit more consistent with my updates! i hope i don't completely forget about this diary lovemail thing. goodbyes from gaku and i.
10月 02日
hello ♡ and welcome to my digital shrine for my amazing boyfriend! we've been utterly devoted to each other since december 6th, 2021! time flies by fast and we're about to celebrate our 4 years. i couldn't be more grateful to be by his side since! our tradition of walks in the snow will never change. japan is always better during the winter season. i remember the snow crunching under his boots while went stand to stand. buying warm snacks and drinks... our memories is so beautiful. i know there will be new ones, and they'll be even better! we could never break up, his pinky is attached to mine with a red string, looped with a heart. we will never break up! #gakumoka is eternal. i've written him countless letters that it clogs up the hideout ♪ my dearest hedonist... we're truly opposites, and yet, we're like puzzle pieces that fit so perfectly. basically superglued together, limbs entangled, souls intertwined, and more that describes our mutual devotion and obsession. let this be your warning that, even if everything written here is for public view, it won't be free from my cringe. i love my boyfriend, okay? watchout for more lovemail soon.