i was feeling just content enough to forget you!

hai!! my name is lottie but i also go by pencey online. only close friends can call me lukas. i have a handful of mental/personality disorders that i will not share past audhd and did for my own peace of mind and privacy.
i am nixera (devoid of gender and feminine presenting) and use she/her pronouns. people close to me can use he/her or they/them. raging lesbian.

i am taken. love my girlfriend so much est 20.11 and will not date outside of her system. sorry (｡•ᴗ•｡) i love all of my friends hai banned gc i love you all eternally.

i really like my chemical romance, smosh, dan and phil, fall out boy, panic! at the disco, the academy is, gym class heroes, cobra starship, circa survive, fuckin' whatever, dance gavin dance (i do not condone the band's actions and do not frequently listen) swancore, post-hardcore, and kpop. my ult group is illit and my ult bias is moka! i also stan hearts2hearts and my bias wrecker is ye-on & stella. i am also really into formula 1. my favourite drivers are françois cevert, nico rosberg, lewis hamilton, jackie stewart and lando norris.

i frequently have paranoia and mania episodes that will affect how i interact with those around me, no matter how close we are. this is not a personal thing, i am just very unmedicated and very easily triggered. do not talk about me and then tell me about it. i hate being percieved. out of sight out of mind. i am an attachment of my friend group. they know a lot of stuff about me that most people don't. please do not take it to heart if i am more closed off with you, especially if i don't know you. i struggle with trust and am extremely attached to my group.