This is a loveletter rentry for Vera to talk about his amazing, beloved boyfriend! Vera is me! I love my boyfriend so much! Go check out our joint, it's super cool. Cassie decorated it!
03 . 10 . 25
Hi, darling! I'm revamping this... As promised, it will be Orcazai & Sharkchuu themed! Literally us for real... I adore you, did you know that? I'm so glad we're spending more time together, just us. It makes me happy. I like talking to you. You're the only person I don't get drained with... My social battery is super weak in general, but I could talk with you forever. You make me really happy. I love you very dearly!
03 . 11 . 25
I'm still in the works of making the layout, so it might not be published for a few more days... You can wait though, right? I'm deleting all the old entries, but I put them on a different rentry url. I can send it to you if you want! The URL is randomly generated though, if you want I can put it on a different one so it's easier to find. I'd put it on a crgn, but I don't know what happened to that website... It never works for me anymore.
I like fanarts where Dazai and Chuuya show mutual care for each other... Normally I only see Chuuya taking care of Dazai, but I like the occasional fanart I find where Dazai helps Chuuya instead. I'm mainly talking about cleaning wounds, but I love all fluffy fanart. It reminds me of us! You make me so happy... Recently I've been having such a horrible time in general, and I've been upset a lot. So talking to you makes me feel much better... I've been feeling kind of... I guess numb, recently. But you + Soukoku make my life so much better! Yay! No matter how sad I'm feeling, talking with you makes me feel even a little bit happy. I really love you. Thank you for making life less lonely.
I lied, I'm almost done with the layout... I don't know where this burst of motivation came from. It's not that great, but I think it's decent enough, right? I still need to make top and bottom borders, but right now, I can't be bothered... I just want to publish it to see what you think! Technically, I used your favorite color combination as well... It just doesn't look that great, I don't think. Oh well... I might remake it.
I'm back... Um. I don't know. I have a bad feeling! I don't know why but I do! I'm sorry, I don't know what's up with me. Ughh. I wish I could be a normal person instead of having my mood do a complete 180 whenever something is even the slightest bit off. It's not your fault I'm sorry if it seems like I'm blaming it on you. Or like. Idk. It's not because you haven't been online or whatever, I know you worry about that sometimes. I don't know why I'm feeling this way, but it's not you, okay? You're wonderful, I love you. I don't know what's wrong with me. Sigh! ( _ . _) Hopefully I'll feel better soon. I hate being upset!
03 . 12 . 25
Good morning, dearest! Are you feeling better than you were yesterday? I hope you are, I don't like when you're not feeling good... If you're not, I hope I can make you feel even a little bit better! I love you so much. I was thinking of making you a gift... I don't have many ideas right now, but I'll try to get some motivation and finish it. No special date, I just feel like making you something! <3 I love you so much!
Hi I'm back again... Do I annoy you? I feel like I've been more annoying lately. I don't reallyyy. Have much of a filter. I feel like I say annoying stuff a lot. I just feel comfortable around you so I don't. Mask as much! But I feel like that might be annoying. I don't know. I'm sorry. I think what made me think about this was me posting about that rando that might have a crush on me. I didn't mean to make you feel bad if I did... I didn't even like it myself I wanted to crash out so bad. I thought I made it very clear that I'm taken!! So why!! Do people do this!! Umm. Anyway. Yeah. I'm sorry. I love you. I hope you have a good break okay... I love you so much. I hope you feel better soon.
03 . 13 . 25
I'm crashing out. Okay sorry it's not that bad but. Urgh. I hate when people other than me call you Cassie. That's MY special name for you!! I came up with it!!! AAAAH!!! It's whatever. I'll bring it up with the person who called you that. Ugh. I don't even think you consider them that close either. Whatever.
03 . 14 . 25
Hi! I read through /LDR. Umm. Firstly it wasn't Aya, it was umm. Acht. So I asked them not to call you that. Secondly, I tried to stay up to take a picture, but I failed and passed out around 1AM. Very unfortunate... I'll try to find some pictures online. They'll probably be better quality than I could have gotten!
But I understand what you mean, I've never said no to a confession either... And I've never been the one to confess until now. I was planning on letting my feelings just. Rot in my chest until they died down but it got too overwhelming to hold them in. I kind of just burst and impulsively send you that anon ask. I was so scared I almost threw up but I couldn't. Delete it. But it all worked out because now I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me! Yayay! I love you so much. Promise we're gonna be together forever, okay? Okay! Yay! I love you!!
I also forgot to mention, but you messaged me at the right time. My mind was getting really clouded and seeing your notification snapped me out of it. I love you so much. I'm gonna squeeze you into a pulp. I love you. You're lovely.
03 . 26 . 25
You don't have to save me. Okay? I'd actualy prefer you didn't. I feel bad, because I used to refer to you as my savior and stuff a lot. I mean, you did save me from my depressive spiral before we originally got together, but I don't want you to focus on my wellbeing. Maybe Kana5 just got me paranoid, because I compare us to KanaMafu. I don't want you exhausting yourself with me. And I want you to know you can always come to me when you're ready. I want to help you however I can.
03 . 14 . 25
I love you. Oh my goodness. I hope you stop losing your marbles soon... If you can, you can tell me about it. If not, I'll always be here. You can even just dm me and ask for cute animal videos and pictures. I have a bunch to spare! I love you. I'll forever wait for you. I want to be there for you like you're there for me.
04 . 04 . 25
Hii! I looked through /LDR this morning. I listened to the song... It made me feel better. I'm glad you're taking a break, I hope it's making you feel at least a bit better. I'm thinking of retheming this... Should I make it MizuMafu themed? I probably will...
I've been talking more in the carrd that I made. Some of the entries are kind of negative, so I'll try to keep them more positive from now on, okay?
04 . 07 . 25
Hi. I don't even know if you check this, but... I don't know. I'm paranoid. My friends have been helping me but it's really... Not working very well. I'm worried. I know you're taking a break, but you didn't even mention me in your about page of the blog and that made me feel. Really sick. I don't know. I'm probably overthinking it but I've went almost 5 days with barely any contact with you, and you know I'm anxious. So even a simple 'I still love you, I don't want to break up' in /LDR would be fine. Okay. I'm sorry. I love you so much.
? Ok I'm back because I checked your blog and now I'm at the bottom. Was it always there and I just didn't see it and I was crashing out for nothing or did you see this and just add it. Sorry
04 . 08 . 25
Today, I was listening to the playlist I made for us. One of my favorite songs, forwards beckon rebound, came on when I shuffled. I think I've told you about it before... Anyway, I started thinking about the possible meaning of the song. I know it's partly about BPD, but as always, I had to relate it to us. I'm moving this here though, because I think it's gonna get long.
04 . 09 . 25
I feel nauseous thinking about anyone but you seeing me in a romantic light. I was having some sort of crash out in your DMs a few nights ago over that... I think I blew it out of proportion but the very thought made me. Want to vomit. So. Uhmm. Idk. Bleh. I love ONLY you okay? I used the song watermelon in the graphics for a reason. "Fuck 'em all but us". I couldn't care less about anyone else who may like me! I only want you. I love you. UUEUUEEE. I love you SO MUCH!!!!!
I just read through /LDR KILLS YOU!!! ! !!! I love squishies. Oh my Goodness. I have a bunch of mochi squishies on my shelf... And I will take good care of Jeremy Okay I promise. I'll tuck him in every night and I will love him very much.
04 . 24 . 25
HIII hi hi hi. I decorated /sweetpea and there's a link to a letter if you click around OK? I LOVE YOU HAPPY ANNIVERSARY YAYYY!!!!
HI. I'M BACK AGAIN. Bluesky isn't letting me in it hates me for Some Reason. So um. Iffff you wanna say something you can send it to me on spring I suppose?? And we can go back and forth from there???? I'm so sorry I tried everything but it's. Literally not loading anything. Sigh. SIGH! Whatever. Umm. Tell me where to look on /LDR okay? Thank you I love you!!!
