15.08.25 - 3:47PM
i lovr nagi seishiro and have for nearly 2 years now. our date is 27.12.23 bc i remember getting the bllk manga for christmas & binging it the second i saw nagi. sometimes idk how to describe my relationship with him, whether id consider myself a riako, yumejoshi, gachakoi or secret fourth thing - what i do know is that whether i like it or not this dumb footballer resembles sm things for me & ill forever hold my identity close to him. i think my attachment to him peaks because i was going through a relationship and alot of changes at my life at that time in early 2024 so my favourite character who also experiences similar struggles became a massive source of comfort for me. bllk as a media also is so nostalgic for me which sounds stupid but like i said its because my time in its fandom was when my life was super emotional with many ups + downs - i have so many regrets from then but i still cherish that time. hes stupid lazy bc he has no motivation in general and basically is whole attitude towards life centers around the fact he doesnt like it. theres alot of speculation as to what labelled condition he struggles with but the main consensus is either autism or depression. the first because he has a hard time understanding people in general, his rendition of life & selective isolation is the product of nagi simply feeling like he doesnt belong. he doesnt understand the passion for life and is very open about the fact his ideal world would be one where he basically rots in his room for all eternity playing videogames. i hope from this explanation its also obvious why he's speculated clinically depressed, furthermore he's very co-dependant on people as we see in his need to use reo. he couldnt learn to grow by himself and adapt as a player even when being told what was at stake - hence him getting locked off. i really adore reo i project onto reonagi bc i love when nagi is loved and i find their relationship so adorable. he found his passion through a person and the way they talk about eahother is super wholesome to me i love reo and nagi sooo much. i see them as both platonic & romantic but nothing changes about my perspective on them as just friends. i prefer the term soulbound when talking about venagi because i love reonagi and see them in a multitude of different ways. i dont believe im dating nagi just know he means the absolute world to me & i appreciate him more than anybody else. he's my favorite character of all time nothing could ever take away what he means to me and anybody claiming otherwise simply couldn't understand. i see his so many things. he is me i am him hes also my son & best friend im extremely possessive of all nagi, reonagi & bluelock yes this means i am petty and may block over it idrc