my beautiful krueger . .
you had my heart captured from the moment i laid my eyes upon you . you were the second , and , i believe , the only true one i have ever loved . you broke me free from the locks and chains i had placed upon my own love . you are the subject of my deepest desires , and no matter what you will always be the one i turn to when i am in need of reassurance .
you drive me mad sometimes , not necessarily in a negative way either , i feel like an actual person when i see you . like the years i had spent confused and unsure of myself never even existed . i know we ' ve had our ups and downs , but i could never lose you . you matter more than anyone else in my world .
i was struggling for a long time — i don ' t think i even realized it back then . you were the lamp in the dusty room i had crawled into to die . you were the angel to take me away from it all and show me what life could be if i just gave myself the chance .
i know you ' re fictional . i know you likely wouldn ' t like me if we met . i know we likely would never even meet . but , that does not change the affection i hold for you . it is like nothing else i have ever experienced , nor will i ever experience it again .
i hope maybe , if reincarnation is real , that i can meet you in another life . that we can cycle throughout our lives together and grow old . that we can sit and watch the stars in the sky . that , maybe , we could one day become those stars , burning so closely together .
i love you , sebastian . .