"Hi-De-Ho, Here I Come!"
⠀[ ✦ ] English is not my first language, I am Polish, so try not to be offended if what I say can be weirdly provided or if it comes off in a rude input, I apologise if it does come off that way. Sometimes, I use a translator if I have to so please be mindful about my grammatical mistakes & the way I talk.
⠀[ ✦ ] I can be incredibly clingy & needy sometimes; usually around closer friends/if I actually really like being with you. However, I'm not doing this to a parasocial/possessive extent, so don't worry about it, I can limitate it if you are uncomfy :-) I also act silly and very full of joy, probably always llelelelele !!! ^o^
⠀[ ✦ ] No hard feelings if I don't trust you enough yet, I have severe trust issues due to the immense trauma I've suffered throughout years of my life, it's best if we take it slowly and give it some time, so you can have a bigger chance for this expectation.
⠀[ ✦ ] To put it more to detail; I am disabled, severely mentally ill & physically ill, so I tend to struggle a lot with most behaviours and even everyday things. But, to put these facts short it seems like life didn't want me to play easy mode, unfortunately.
⠀[ ✦ ] Yes, I am fully aware I'm an unhealthy & unstable person, but I'm trying my very best to limitate these mood swings & behaviours; with assistance of professional help & medication. I do not project nor encourage my behaviours/mood swings onto other people.
⠀[ ✦ ] I have extremely bad social anxiety and low social battery, and sometimes even low concentration; so I may come off as dry sometimes, struggle with calls, friendships and even calls. Note that I'm not intentionally ignoring your messages, I try my best to answer them, but I'm also very busy with prioritising my health, college work and commissions I get most of the time. It's more so a "please be patient I'm trying my best" rather then me ghosting you. Feel free to bump if there's no response, I try my best—!!! ^_^
⠀[ ✦ ] I'm very picky/selective in general, so please no hard feelings if I don't want to get into something or if I don't show interest, it's not really in a rude input but I'm just deeply attached to the interests I currently have <3
⠀[ ✦ ] I don't usually join voice calls due to social anxiety but also my speech impediments (stuttering & repeating things) and how weird & awkward I actually sound. I also don't engage in group chats or let people instantly join me unless I deem you close, it overwhelms me highly if you can't respect that.
⠀[ ✦ ] Also, have common sense when interacting with me and don't be rude in general. Obviously we can have fun, but whilst I struggle with tones myself, if it does cut to a serious topic, it's serious. (also please use tone tags with me or atleast understand them if you can aaajdjdkkfksks)
⠀[ ✦ ] Majority of the time if we've newly interacted / not interacted too much, it's more likely the case where you'd have to pop in as a first message. I'll try my best to check in if we haven't spoke in a while though <3
⠀[ ✦ ] I don't mind flirting and I don't mind NSFW/crude & dark jokes made around me as long as we both know what we're doing. I have triggers to: maggots, rape/S@ (victim of both..), my stalkers/the topic of stalking, the name "Tony". DO NOT MAKE "REMARKS" / JOKES OF THESE AROUND ME. THEY CAN GIVE ME GENUINE PANIC ATTACKS. YES I'M BEING DEADASS SERIOUS.
⠀[ ✦ ] I'm one of two hosts of a traumagenic DID system, if behaviours may be "weird/off" or if it's too different, well it is; it's someone else fronting after me. Just don't try to dehumanise us or anything & DON'T be weird to the other headmates in our system, especially our littles if they do front. *we also may use plural (we, us) pronouns generally sometimes!
⠀[ ✦ ] I know I said I don't really have a DNI list, but if you are one of my stalkers (Solar, Kane, Lewis, yes im naming you guys go cry about it <3) or my ex partners/friends, I've more likely cut you off for a reason where I no longer felt comfortable to associate with you, and I want you to understand. To my stalkers & my abusive ex-boyfriend however, fuck off & bring me out of your damn mind, you obsessed cunts, you guys have tried to dehumanize, exaggerate & you have put us under absolute distress and misery, and are one of the reasons for our diagnosis of C-PTSD, along with our paranoia and trust issues. Seriously...
