Hey so, I seem to have fucked this place up a lot and want to come clean

When this was still a 4chan post I had a disclaimer here saying that I wasn't going to blogpost, but given that I've hit the character limit with backstory alone I don't think that's applicable anymore so I may as well just discard that and be clear

I'm Oceanborough anon, I came here May 27th or 26th

I've been

• making a lot of the recent threads,
• handling the HP roster update stuff and rentry (+ threadslave rentry entry, some prompts),
• working on the human/monster companion CYOA,
• brainstorming PMD and handling its rentry as well

I came to the thread because i've been wanting to find someplace to write for a while, but almost all of the mainstream avenues are either porn or mostly dead. To that end I went to /tg/ and started scrolling for gamefinders, but I saw this thread instead

I remembered it from a few years ago, ended up getting an idea for HP, and decided to stick around, but given the current state of the thread I think that was probably a mistake

I've been genuinely busy throughout all of this so I haven't had the time to tend to everything as much as I want to, which has led to some builds getting overlooked and the small storyline I had planned out (which was supposed to take 2 weeks maximum) now extending to the point where I am basically writing the halfway point when I should have been writing its end

As apology for that i've tried to contribute as much as I can when i've had the time, but I think that's been having the opposite effect and driving people away, and I'm really not sure how to fix what I think i've accidentally broken

Partly because I'm not entirely sure how I broke it in the first place, outside of some sort of gatekeeping which I'm not entirely sure the cause of (Can't tell if people were genuinely upset about the fetish builds being excluded despite thread opinion being to exclude them, don't know if Yukiri being off the roster for several days was the cause, generally unsure about direct causes in general), partly because I don't know enough about the thread to build off of past experience

Best solution I'm seeing is to just leave and let things naturally return to how they were, but there are now people putting in a lot of genuine effort for PMD so doing that without telling anyone has been retired as a possibility. Given that leaving without a word can't really work without killing the PMD mp, I'm opting instead to clarify the situation so that the perpetrator is clear and the reasoning doesn't come off as just "I'm bored, someone else do my job for me"

I've been trying to ignore the situation and push forward regardless, because my default when things get tough is to grin and bear it and try to keep people's spirits up, but now that I seem to have driven possibly five and at least two people away from current thread happenings for sure, I think saying nothing is just going to make things worse

Admittedly, Merlin's anon posting was the straw that broke the camel's back because I genuinely loved his ideas and his work and he directly cited this entire mess as reason for him retiring his HP work and not bothering with PMD, but people leaving at all is what prompted me to write this out even though I know how 4chan frowns upon this kind of thing

I'm thinking, now, would anybody want to take over PMD for me? There are still interested people that I don't want to let down, but there are just as many if not more that don't care or dislike the concept and would just get in the new guy's way

I don't want to let pmd become a stillborn, but I think I'm hurting the thread so I don't think sticking around to manage it would be much better
Then again, if I leave the work to some other guy, he's just going to get the brunt of the "ew pmd" comments and always has the option of just shutting it down himself. I guess if anyone would like to take it over and is willing to shoulder whatever comes with it, I'd be willing to send him an email with plot spoilers and the edit code in case he wants to.

Not sure, this is mostly just a sleep-deprived ramble. Vague attempt to ask what's going on and if I'm the cause after directly being called out. If you've read this far I'm sorry lol, I hope this didn't get you down. There's another Oceanborough story coming soon that I was working on before writing this, hopefully that'll make up for this.