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gonna write newer ones here since i write a lot..
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‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ♡‧₊˚ 6 jun : I'd definitely write about my sweet Veritas more but honestly I have the issues of talking so much about him in my head that i often forget to note things down...... its ok. it makes our love more authentic i think #cope. anyways. I love him so much ive been buying so much more merch of him lately and in like 2 months its my bday so YOU KNOW ill use ALLLLLL my bday money on bf merch!!!!!!!!!!! ughhh on HSR I have already saved over 700 pulls for e6r1 Veri but still no rerun... its been over a year too mind you. I think hoyo fucking hates my man but WHATEVER. Im finally in summer vacation and i plan to draw more of us if artblock doesnt get the best of me plus i wanna draw Dottore. ALSO I REALISED. my bf Ratio and my oshi Dottore ARE BOTH DOCTORS WITH RED EYES WHO BASICALLY HATE RELIGION. oh my god i love life. i love my boyfriend Veritas and i like how similar (IN A WAY???????? LISTEN) he is to Dottore. well if u ignore the whole ass crimes Dottie has done but its ok he can do no wrong .
also speaking of which.. sometimes i find myself talking to myself about Ratio in romanian and it made me think.. would he learn romanian or russian or even italian for me?...... i loveeee that idea. i have this sketch where i try to teach him how to say ily in russian and i HAVE to finish it asap.. keep an eye on /doctorratio yall..
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‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ♡‧₊˚ 12 jun : there was a pic here but it pissed me off the layput so .
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‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ♡‧₊˚ 18 jun : its been well a week or over since dad died and ive lowkirkenuiely been so stressed and horribly struggling mentally cuz turns out being punk anti religion in an orthodox household while someone close died is NOT for the weak. anyway i dont want to make this a vent ill just text about veritas cuz thats what the rentry is about . BUDDY U PISS ME OFF SO MUCH OMG I HATE U RATIO CAN U GET A FUCKING RERUN BY NOW WHAT ARE U DOINGGGGG. i legit saved up all f2p over a year now i have well over 740 pulls saved for ratio e6 dude what THE ACTUAL FUCK. anyway i ordered like $57 worth of ratio merch if that even matters. imma draw us more later. if that even matters. whatevcer. ALSO OMGGGG i have veritas.co and drratio.co on carrd thank u via. SHOUTOUT TO VIA HE'S AWESOME IF UR READING THIS HELLO. ur cool. UGHHHHH i miss dr ratio bro he pisses me off i hate him. hey at least he's been keeping my sanity. ALSOOOO GUESS WHOS GETTING A DR RATIO TATTOO SOON. in like 2 months. on my 18 bday YEP THIS FELLA. i planned to get a harley poe and dr ratio atttoo cuz im a #youngho
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‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ♡‧₊˚ 26 jun : we're eating kebab together hai aydentio kebab omg i love kebab °❀.ೃ࿔* ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ♡‧₊˚ 4 july : ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 900 days together
I love you Veritas Ratio, you're my beloved doctor and i'd do anything for you. You mean the world to me and I know its vice versa.

Sper ca aceste momente împreună petrecute cu tine să rămână ca amintiri și dovezi de iubirea pe care o împărtășim. Nu vreau mai mult in viața asta decât să te am alături de mine oriunde ai fi. Ești persoana care îmi dă motivație să fiu cine sunt eu acum. Я люблю тебя, мой доктор. Возможно, я не первый, с кем ты ходила на свидание, с кем целовалась или кого любила, но я хочу быть последним. Sarai sempre il mio numero uno. L'unico capace di farmi battere il cuore e ridacchiare a tarda notte. Sei il miglior professore che potessi desiderare, anche se non sono il tuo studento. Sai almeno quante notti sono rimasto sveglio a pensarti? Quante volte mi sei mancato?

ok... No clue where to start aaaaaaaaahhhhhh. 900 days together with YOU seems like such a huge acomolishment honestly I never noticed time passing by so fast. it felt like just a few days ago you were announced as a character and that I was so excited to get you on my team.. I remember going insane trying to clear my storage just to get you. you were released around the time I was in Italy too.. I coudlnt stop thinking about you while I was supposed to go to shopping and enjoy myself. The first time I saw you I honestly didnt feel much besides excitement for the first HSR free unit tbh. And unironically, it took me a while to warm up to you. Back when I saw you I wasnt much of a gachikoi and moreso of a simple casual yumeshipper ykwim?? back then I was also together w my ex and because he was a lil coocoo in the head I had to hide the fact I was yumeshipping with you because he'd get all jealous and mad. but whatever hes not in my life #thankfully and im fully open about being with you. I started being a gachikoi mainly for a year now and I honestly stopped trying to chase irl relationships or anything like that. Honestly im pretty fine and contempt with being just with you. us against the universe or whatever that saying says. Oh Veritas you dont know how much im struggling with such a simple Lovemail. 900 whole days together, you and I, even during the days where my hyperfixation on you went away or I was obsessing over something else, you remained my number one. You're the first character ive ever seen myself so inlove with, the first one I was able to talk about even to my irls. Did you know even my mom knows about you? hell even my brother and sister in law. They call you ugly but its ok I guess. I guess. my irl friends know about you and are weirdly supportive, they know im lowkirkgenuiely aromatic and I cannot date someone for the life of me. Besides you ♡
Anywho, I always doodle you around in my notebooks, books, or any paper I can hold onto. You're my absolute muze, youre why i was able to get better at art. something im so passionate about. Oh Veritas, two artists in this world who are truly passionate about what they love and their administration for human creation - arent we so similar yet so different? You're so passionate about keeping lives and maintaining truth and knowledge while I am so self destructive and arrogant at times, how do you find yourself to love me so much? In a world where im so filled with hatred towards its humanity, societal rules and goverment, you managed to find the part of me that can only hold hope and love for a right future.
Did I ever tell you the time I went to a political protest and brought your little plushie along? I wonder to this day how proud you'd be of me. How you'd look at me through the stage of people seeing me debate others in public in my town about current rules and corruption. I know so well you'd look at me with pride, being so happy that I too contribute to your pursuit of healing Ignorance. You'd be happy I advocate for a world in which religion isn't the main ruler, in which religion shouldn't control the fate of those less or more fortunate.
Oh Ratio, the amount of songs I can give to you that remind me of us are of an unreachable number, but one song has always stood up.. She dont know by Harley Poe. You already know my love for this band as I even have a tattoo of it. This song is so horribly us that I cant help but daydream of you when I hear it.
Speaking of tattoos, im planning to get a tattoo of you soon! im planning it as a gift for our 1000 days anniversary. isn't that exciting? I'll have you with me no matter what, even if one day i loose interest in you (which i doubt it'll happen but. u never know.), ill still have you with me no matter what ♡ isn't that the most romantic thing ever? I plan on getting the outline of your owl shoulder piece and maybe plus the laurel.. at first I wanted to get your name tattooed but thats too basic isn't it. I cant wait.. I wanted this tattoo of you to be on my shoulder but unfortunately ill have to do it on an area that isn't visible because of my schools rules. UGH its ok. its so ok ill find a solution.
anyway I don't really know what else to write because mostly its said. everyone knows I love you deeply and you love me back and that you'd do everything to stay with me. You may have other fans but I know you love me most ~
I like to think im dating an actual idol. Just like a real person - you'd have so many fans that believe theyre together with you when in reality im yours only. Im your beloved one and only one. You make me feel so loved simply by existing, its funny how a guy thats legit fictional and cant talk to me makes me feel more loved than all the shitty relationships ive ever had. You know at the end of the day I want someone just like you. Compassionate, loving, rough but with good intentions, realistic and loyal. You mean so so so much to me and our 900 days together are proof of that. I will be making that playlist of us that i never managed to do ok?
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