Am I About to Join a Kill-Or-Be-Killed Love Triangle ch18: Open Campus (Part 1)

The reason she's lived for so long...

Why did I want to die again?

Eh...?
I vaguely wanted to die,
but when did I first think that?

Huh?

Didn't she say she didn't want to die?

Ah~
I was lying about not wanting to die.

I was hoping to use you
and get you to kill me, Kohaku~
Eeeh!?

It's stange...
how I can expose that without hesitation.
Haha
Maybe it's because that wasn't my true wish?

Hmm...

I-I'm being left behind...
Hmm~

I knew you'd be in the library!

Ema~
Wah!

Why was it I wanted to die again?
I-
I-
Eh?
Wh-What's this all of a sudden!?

S-So that stuff about not wanting to die
was a lie after all!
I'm being treated like an outsider!
...I've completely forgotten
the reason why I want to die,
but that doesn't mean I want to live.
It's like I haven't grown at all
since they day we first met!

No, I can't be like this. After all...
I-
I'm their friend now!

Class is starting. The teacher's ticked... off.

The reason you want to die, Kirara...

I-
I ended up hiding...

is because

you're lonely, right?

I'm lonely...

Once in a while, you look at photos of someone
and mumble "I'm lonely" to yourself.

What's with that look? It's like you're jealous or something.

That's not the look someone gives to their family.

Aah.

p10-11

That's it!
I want

to die a blessed death!

p12-13

Just like how people are blessed by those who love them when they are born,
Huh?
Hey.
I want to be blessed by the one I love when I die.
Uwaaaaah

What I want
is to killed by nobody but you, Ema.
Hah

p14

Wah.
You really do love Ema-san a lot, huh, Kirara-san!

p15

That wasn't witty banter or anything.
I was just saying what I saw...

Hah...

p16

So Ema really
doesn't think of Kirara as just family...

It's hard to accept such a chain of realizations...