Alright, so , where do I even fucking begin

I'll guess I'll start of with a disclaimer that everything below is an emotionally charged rant, basically just me rambling out things as they enter my head without much thought so please don't see it as me making any statements or anything. If anything, don't even mention anything below in the thread. Please.

It kinda hurts. I know I haven't done much, or been as interactive as others in the thread, but seeing the out pour of support and love shown for the new guy on the block where people have been either completely quiet or only shitposted with you Cunt... I guess it makes me feel unwanted. Really fucking silly I know, and honestly pathetic to get worked up over yet here I am, feeling like people have found their excuse to push me (or us) aside. It's got me honestly got me having thought about going full schizo menhera last night, telling both the thread and you to go fuck yourselves and start writing about /MANS/ in what used to be /nasa/ as some sort of borderline schizo tribes migrating in from the north. Or just saying fuck it and toss the role of a rep back to you. I've (largely) abandoned the ideas after sleeping on them.

I don't want to go into the /soc/ shit aspect of this, but I guess I just get that intrusive thought of people around me just wanting me gone but not stating it outright pretty often. Been to therapy but it did jack shit.

Honestly it even almost felt like a backstab reading that you would support this guy over us, even when I myself don't know if I could really accept the place in good conscience knowing that it'd fuck over a writer who genuinely hasn't done anything wrong other than have an unfortunate timing. Hell, under literally any other circumstance I'd be super happy about the new blood, but here I am almost starting to sound like the fucking schizo shitposters.

TL:DR I guess I need meds.